My Boo Boo

I want to apologize for a stupid action I took that has caused hurt and humiliation to brother Joe Lye. After service last sunday, he admonished me and I apologized. Though the apology was accepted, I feel I need to offer the apology here in the blog. Joe, I am sorry for the silly mistake I made. I am praying the hurt will only be for a short while.

What Happened?
Just before the service started, Joe walked up on stage with his instrument. I did not want the music arrangements to be disturbed since he did not come for practice and soundcheck. So instead of using PCC handbook guideline 4.4, which states "worship leader has the right to ask members to step down for that sunday if they are deemed counter productive to the worship service or to the team" , I made a wrong call by instructing the soundman to mute his microphone. Yeah, I know, stupid of me!

How Could You Make Such A Silly Decision?
I took the easy way out at a moment of weakness. Instead of exercising my authority, I thought I could please everybody by muting the mic. That way, Joe gets to play and not disturb the entire team. Well it backfired! I am not offering any excuses. It's just a dumb move - period.

Now why didn't I exercise my authority? Because we were about to go up and like I have said before, this is not sunday karaoke. I didn't want to get distracted or embroiled in negative emotions. Worship leading is not about singing some songs to Jesus. It is an utmost holy endeavour to lead God's people into His presence. Moving in prophecies, gifts of the Holy Spirit, healings and things of the Spirit (for me) requires concentration, prayer and spending much time seeking the face of God. So I did not want to be distracted and as a result, I made a big boo boo. In other words, I did not have the strength/will at that moment to say no to Joe. If I had, he would be okay and so will I.

So Will Anything Good Come Out of This?
For one, a new article on this blog.
Two, now you know that we have a PCC handbook and implementation has started.
Three, I need to buck up.
Four, you need to buck up as we are now heading to a more spiritual emphasis of moving in power ministry, prophecy, gifts of the Holy Spirit, etc.
Lastly, pray for me and Joe. I am optimistic that this will be a start of more good things to come after the hurt has healed.